Wordless{ish} Wednesday

Caught in the act...

Rockstar status

As I prepare to take care of a newborn again, I'm too excited to miss sleep. No I'm not knocked up, Liam is just waking to eat at night again.

Last night he woke up at 3am, I fed him a bottle and put him back down, at 330 he was awake crying again. Super dad attempted to work his magic and soothe Liam back to sleep but nothing was working. Brian asked me to get him a bottle, I argued Liam had already taken a bottle( don't mess with me while I'm sleeping!), but since nothing else was working we decided to try again. During that hour my little rockstar finished 6oz, he has never had more than 4oz at a time! He followed that up with finishing 22oz of milk today. WINNER!

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Pray for this family

As parents we often wish we could trade places with our children when they are going through something. Everyday I have wished I could take on this fight for Liam. Reading this article I see the grass is not greener on the other side. This article will make you cry, but please read it and pray for this family who needs a miracle.

Brooklyn Parents

"you're like his pacifier"

We have been home for 6 terrific days now. They have all had their ups and downs. Ups- Liam is so happy, enjoying his own toys, and food. Down- attachment issues. Way down-work.

Liam is attached... to me... all the time. He is getting better little by little, but after this last hospital visit Liam has developed an anxiety toward people. All people, not just strangers.

Yesterday dad was busy working on the house all day so he wanted to put Liam to bed (BONUS) but Liam wanted nothing to do with him, screamed and reached for mommy. But dad persevered. My grandma is here visiting now, but Liam doesn't even want her talking to him. We just have to take a breath and reassure Liam no one is going to hurt him, easier said than done with a 12 month old,

Why was dad so busy all day long? Because when it rains it pours! In January our outside doors broke, broke off the hing and fell into the house. This along with an unusable bathroom, hole in the ceiling and squirrels in the attic. When we bought his house we knew we wanted a house it fix up. We had done well with 1 job a year, but never planned on so much going wrong at once, and while I am out of work on top of everything else. The sky is falling.

Tomorrow Liam begins his 5th cycle of chemo. We pray this is the beginning to the end of this story.

Home

We came home today after 16 days in the hospital. Liam is doing very well. As we readjust to life at home I leave you with this video. If you don't laugh there is something wrong with you (just kidding, but I find it hilarious).

Precious Moments

While nothing can top the feeling of holding your baby for the first time, there are other times when holding your child is just as precious.

After Liam's surgery it was 3 days until the doctors let me hold him. Holding him that day meant the world to me but it was extremely uncomfortable for him.

It has been 10 days since Liam's surgery and I have only held Liam a handful of times. While we're at the hospital Liam sleeps in the bed with me, I hold his hand and that has been enough for him. Tonight Liam was holding his arms out for me so I tried to lay closer and hug him. This only made him mad, pushing me away. I went back to my "side" of the bed and tried to pat him. Liam rolled over, crawled to me, climbed up and fell asleep.

It's going to be a long night, impossible for me to sleep like this, but I have my baby back!

Adjusting steps

When it is obvious goals cannot be reached, do not adjust the goals, adjust the action steps
~Confucius

I'm taking a step back from writing about Liam today. Tune in tomorrow, we've got stories to tell...

Today is like my new years, I'm going at it with goals. My goal for a while has been to get in shape and get back to running. Whenever I start, I get derailed. I am writing about this today because sharing it with you equal accountability. Don't let me slack on this!

Why has running been so hard for me? I don't want to leave Liam. Yes, Brian is a very capable father. I just don't want to leave him. Also I am on a medical leave from work to take care of my son. I feel guilty if my time is not all about taking care of Liam, like I am cheating my medical leave, even if it's 7pm and I wouldn't be working anyway.

Brian and my mom, among others all tell me I need to get out. In order to take care of Liam, I have to be healthy; physically, mentally, emotionally. Running does that for me.

So today when Brian got back from work I went out to run. I went 2.5 miles. Now I won't share with you how embarrassingly slow those 2 miles were, but I plan to go again tomorrow. Small goal: run 3 times/ week. I hope my exercising improves as Liam's health improves.

Liam you are my inspiration.