While nothing can top the feeling of holding your baby for the first time, there are other times when holding your child is just as precious.
After Liam's surgery it was 3 days until the doctors let me hold him. Holding him that day meant the world to me but it was extremely uncomfortable for him.
It has been 10 days since Liam's surgery and I have only held Liam a handful of times. While we're at the hospital Liam sleeps in the bed with me, I hold his hand and that has been enough for him. Tonight Liam was holding his arms out for me so I tried to lay closer and hug him. This only made him mad, pushing me away. I went back to my "side" of the bed and tried to pat him. Liam rolled over, crawled to me, climbed up and fell asleep.
It's going to be a long night, impossible for me to sleep like this, but I have my baby back!